Samulici: Learning to let go

Samulici: Learning to let go: Sometimes I wonder if there is ever a thing that I will hold on to dearly... My life has always been about letting go... letting go of pain...

Samulici: Fear

Samulici: Fear: Fear is what I fear most I am naïve once I had you I I let go of fear I had when I first met you I trusted you with my life Even when I ...

Fear

Fear is what I fear most
I am naïve once I had you I
I let go of fear I had when I first met you
I trusted you with my life
Even when I knew you had ruined it
I still gave you life even though
you took it from me
I always knew you were disappointing
I had it In my instincts but
I chose to ignore it
I was blinded by love
I was overwhelmed
I was living in my own world
The world that you created for me
The world that you moulded for me
The world that you made perfect for me
You told me all the things I needed
And guess where all that landed me!
To hell!
I was not worried about you doing what you did
I just wondered if you knew it hurt me
I wondered if you understood when I said it hurt
I wondered if you wanted to see me bleed
So you will know it hurt
Just because I kept walking
It didn't occur to you that I as tired
Because I was not bleeding
You did not see I was hurt
Because I kept it to myself you kept on doing it
For the whole world to see
Because I kept smiling
you used it against my inner strength

These are the things I feared most
I feared this would be a fairytale
I feared it will hurt just like it had before
I feared I would not cry tears of joy one day
I was absolutely right look at me now
I am weeping...

Learning to let go

Sometimes I wonder if there is ever a thing that I will hold on to dearly... My life has always been about letting go...
letting go of pain
Letting go of joy
Letting go of hate
Letting go of love
Letting go of resentment
Letting go of people I care about

I wonder if there will ever be something left for me
I wonder if I should keep giving though I don't receive
I wonder if this will ever stop I want it to stop
How do I hang on
How would I hold on
Hold on to what
Heartbreak?
Bleeding heart every second
Who can do that all their life?
Is it only for me
Why
Why me?
If not me then who?

Letting you go as well will come to my rescue
Will give me hope for tomorrow
Because if I hold on to tight to you
I might loose everything I have
I need to do this for me

Though I do not know how much I should let go in future
But I am certain about right now
I am letting go
I am letting go for me
To see the sun shining again

I just miss being here with my thoughts:-(

It all happened so fast it was like a dream, before she knew it she was giving more and something was taken from her something very important. He had broken walls and opened a heart that was made of steel. When he was moving to the next victim "as i would like to call them" he slammed a door to her face, naiveness and low self-esteem prevented her from seeing the other side of this person she moved back and forth with thoughts searching for answers but she never find out, she prayed but she did not have much faith that things could be turned around by the Almighty. One day she got courage and left now the decision she took is haunting forever, she was pushing against the wall but the truth is how could he do that to her. She asked herself what else could he had to her if given a second chance. The fact that she believed and gave up most of the things she liked and loved because of him was now terrifying. Despite the heartache and tears that fell down she still forgive for herself and everyone close to her because is not about sitting at the edge and whining when things dont go your way, you have got to stand up and hold the world at your feet because you have the power within yourself you are worthy-she said It all happened so fast it was like a dream, before she knew it she was giving more and something was taken from her something very important. He had broken walls and opened a heart that was made of steel. When he was moving to the next victim "as i would like to call them" he slammed a door to her face, naiveness and low self-esteem prevented her from seeing the other side of this person she moved back and forth with thoughts searching for answers but she never find out, she prayed but she did not have much faith that things could be turned around by the Almighty. One day she got courage and left now the decision she took is haunting forever, she was pushing against the wall but the truth is how could he do that to her. She asked herself what else could he had to her if given a second chance. The fact that she believed and gave up most of the things she liked and loved because of him was now terrifying. Despite the heartache and tears that fell down she still forgive for herself and everyone close to her because is not about sitting at the edge and whining when things dont go your way, you have got to stand up and hold the world at your feet because you have the power within yourself you are worthy-she said