Fear

Fear is what I fear most
I am naïve once I had you I
I let go of fear I had when I first met you
I trusted you with my life
Even when I knew you had ruined it
I still gave you life even though
you took it from me
I always knew you were disappointing
I had it In my instincts but
I chose to ignore it
I was blinded by love
I was overwhelmed
I was living in my own world
The world that you created for me
The world that you moulded for me
The world that you made perfect for me
You told me all the things I needed
And guess where all that landed me!
To hell!
I was not worried about you doing what you did
I just wondered if you knew it hurt me
I wondered if you understood when I said it hurt
I wondered if you wanted to see me bleed
So you will know it hurt
Just because I kept walking
It didn't occur to you that I as tired
Because I was not bleeding
You did not see I was hurt
Because I kept it to myself you kept on doing it
For the whole world to see
Because I kept smiling
you used it against my inner strength

These are the things I feared most
I feared this would be a fairytale
I feared it will hurt just like it had before
I feared I would not cry tears of joy one day
I was absolutely right look at me now
I am weeping...